This is just me being me. (Don’t take it seriously.)
I’m currently sitting on everything. The book title, the book cover, character artwork, previews, and so much more. I don’t know what it is, but I’m just having a hard time being able to share/release it all.
Whether it’s for personal reasons, nerves, or just going through the scams and rage-baiters, I’m struggling right now. I’m so excited and yet so terrified, and I’m just not sure how to get past it.
Maybe writing this blog will help me. That’s kind of what I’m hoping for. And apparently, I love using my blog to bitch and complain. 😂
I want the book to be loved. But I know no matter what, there will be people out there who are going to hate it.
But I’m also a human, and I put countless years into this story. I mean, the hours of organizing, outlining, taking notes, writing, rewriting, editing, and getting other people’s input… Of course I don’t want bad criticism. I don’t want to see, “DNFed at 10% because the main character was annoying.”
Honestly, it makes me sick to my stomach.
Oh, and I know those people will comment, “Well, if you can’t take it, then don’t release it.”
Well, fuck you, people. 😂
Because I worked this hard, and I still have emotions.
Damn.
I am a total bitch, though. Lol.
But that’s just for personal reasons, again, that I believe are a part of my personality. It’s because I’m loyal to a fault.
So I guess that’s why I struggle.
It’s because I’m loyal to this story after all this time.
I’m sitting on this homemade trailer for the book cover right now, lol. I’ve watched it probably 30 times. Probably more.
It’s good.
But it’s not great.
(Just like the rest of my stuff?) 😂
Lol.
But I just need to be me.
RELEASE THE VAMPIRE SMUT — PART TWO!!! 🩸
Because at the end of the day, I made this thing. I love this story. I’m terrified to put it out there.
But I’m going to fucking do it anyway.
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